@Veins Of Scarlet: I wish i had your faith .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Thursday, June 24, 2010

I wish i had your faith .

TODAY , went out with my crazy bitches , (Y) . YunTing didn't came late today , surprising or what right , keke . Anyw , we went Lot1 early to finish our work , i didn't get to copy any ! Becos im done with mine alr , But , i was so kind to help Lincoln to finish his . He is a good boy today , *wink . So , after that , met Dhiri && Sam . We realised that we had too much time to kill before the movie start screening . So , without alerting the rest , i pulled YT away && elope with her . Then Glenna called , we bluff her we at Gift A Name , they really went thr . We make them go Gift A Name , MiniToons , Kiddy Palace ,then Action City . YT super enjoyed herself lah , thrillig right ? Anyw , slack around at arcade , camwhore awhile then went in to the theatre , watched Knight and Day . HAHAHAHAH ! Awesome show . Im still laughing now , :D . Got one particular part super funny lah . The Guy call the girl to run at the count of 3 . But she too excited , she ran at the count of 1 . All the bad guys tried to aim at her , then she so clumsy . HAHAHAH ! Ahya , go watch yourself . Very cheap , $6 only . Suppose to fulfill Glenna's wish after the movie , but she need to rush home . Hmm , next time kay (:

How did my mind convince my heart to do that . Though it hurt so much to talk about it again , i just did it . Am i hoping to get another answer that will make me feel better or am i just trying to make her feel guilty ? Gee , im confused . But now i know . I just wanted her to say it .