@Veins Of Scarlet: & i was a fool , playing by the rules .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

& i was a fool , playing by the rules .

I've always dream ,
that my life can be ,
like a fairytale ,
like a fantasy .
I want so much more ,
so much more than a dream ..

PEEKA BOO ! My holiday is rather dull . Except for some entertainments through texts . Early in the morning wake up ,

1) Nua in bed .
2) Wash up .
3) Do homework .
4) Do homework
5) Eat lunch if got time .
6) Go tuition .
7) Come bak home use computer .
8) Watch tv .
9) Eat dinner .
10) Watch tv .
11) Nua in bed .
12) Snore .

Jesus Christ ! My life is so boring . Becos my tuition timing is in between noon && evening , i want go out also cannot . Argh :( Sooner or later i'll die of bordom . The more i'll think of you .

I hate it . You always think you are wrongly accused . But the fact is , you deserve it . You think i dk everything you say is referring to me meh ? Pls , cut the drama . I no longer understands you && i simply dk how to treat you anym . I dk what else i can say alr . Whatever i say or do makes me a bad person ** whatever you do is not wrong . If this is the way you want it && no matter what i say , you still want to do it , fine lah . You always have your own excuses && alternatives . I say A cannot , you go do A2 . Look at the mirror && see yourself . I need peace && harmony . Give me a break ! I dontw to be angry with all this minor stuffs , can you just cut the crap . Tell all your friends how we mistreat you && how used to it you are . Pls do . It wont do any difference to me anyw , im a bad person aye ? :)