@Veins Of Scarlet: Bang wall & died .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Monday, June 28, 2010

Bang wall & died .

I am so tired today . Its like im so strengthless && motivation-less in everything i did today .. Maybe im lack of enough sleep , becos i only slept for 3hrs last night , zzzs . I think im getting older .. older & older :(

Today is the first day of school everybody ! Changes Mathe , P.E && co-form teacher . Mathe teacher is still as boring , i want bang the wall alr . &&& ! Im dying , its official . Ask Glenna if you dont believe lo . My temperature today was 40.7 , *faint . As usual , we must go through all the stupid checkings ; Hair , socks , earrings && blahs . Im quite a good girl though :) Only my skirt isn't acceptable , qtoo short , zzzs . Shall we accept the fact that i've grown taller aye , stop accussing me of folding my skirt -.-

To our total disfortunate , we are having Art for this semester . Dont get me wrong , its not about MGL . I just never liked Art . Art ---> F grade . Hmm , or if MGL is merciful , i'll get a D grade *wink .

During recess , DES cracked . I was talking about how the stepfather in my storybook abuse his daughter , ( Forcing carrots into her byebye ) , DES thought i meant that the stepfather force his daughter to EAT carrot . Then she say , " Huh .. 那我的爸爸不是torture死我了! But anyw 我很喜欢也是! " HAHAHAHA ! Epic sial . She super ps alr , :D

V.lazy to reply tags , next time kay *wink .